Friday, October 16, 2009

News On Mom

I had a wonderful visit with my mom last weekend. My two aunts were there, and Matt and I went down to see mom and dad too. The first day we just visited with Mom when she was awake, and shopped with my aunts while Mom slept. We had dinner at their house, we had a pork roast and veggies and then a cheesecake for dessert.

First I gave her a hair a trim, because she wanted one. Then we fixed it some, and she needed a nap. My aunts and I went to Clearwater Beach. It was a really nice time together and we all swam a bit in the water. Then onto McDonalds for a snack. We had plans to eat at Carrabbas for dinner, so we didn't want to spoil our appetites.


Mom was awake when we got home from dinner, and she stayed awake for a long time. We watched some episodes of "Friends" because Mom loves to watch that show. They have the series on DVD. We all had some more cheesecake, too. Mom was cracking jokes and being cute. She sort of acts like a kid, she is entertained easily and laughs a lot.


The next day my aunts were going to the airport to go home. We said goodbye, which wasn't fun.  I stayed with Mom while Dad took the aunts to the airport.  Mom and I were alone so we had some nice time by ourselves. That was the best hour and a half with her in awhile! We talked a little, then she was tired, so I said go ahead and nap. She wanted me to nap with her, so she moved over and I layed down. Then she covered me up with the sheet and smiled. It was a very precious time with her. Once she startled, looked over and said "oh I was just making sure you're still here." I said, I am here and I put my arm around her so she'd know I was there. We stayed that way for some time. It made me feel at peace, loved by my mom and I knew she felt my love for her too. I still feel that now, almost a week later.

She is progressively going downhill. First, she had trouble talking. Then, she started being confused a lot. She is very confused still and gets things mixed up. Now, she cannot feed herself unless it's finger food and even then needs a bit of help. Dad is taking good care of her. He gives her sponge baths now because she can't get into the bathroom anymore since she can't walk at all or even stand.

This is extremely heartbreaking, and the waiting for someone to die is just awful. I love her with so much love, that it cannot be expressed in words. Only with tears now. And sometimes tears with laughter. I miss her already, because we can't have deep talks like we used to. But I'm thankful that still I can hear her sweet voice whenever I want to or need to. When I'm there I can still wrap my arms around her and kiss her over and over as much as I want. I can tell her I love her and she says "I love you too, Pumpkin Pooh." Which is what she always calls me. It's been my special nickname from her all of my life. These moments are wonderful, and precious, and yet heartbreaking.

13 comments:

Hampton House said...

Matts, thanks for sharing your mom with us! It make us love her too!

I am so thankful that y'all belong to each other. Just a perfect fit for both of you!

MYSAVIOR said...

Oh Anastasia - words are just not enough. You have my heart.♥

SimplyPureSoyCandles said...

Glad that you was able to have a great trip :)

Knit2getherInLove said...

Anastasia,
I feel so privileged to have this opportunity to read about the love and care your family are providing
for your mama. I pray that the Lord will continue to be a source of strength and comfort to you all!

knitblitz said...

Matt's, I think it's wonderful that you share the photos with us and this blog. You have such a great relationship with your mom and you always will. And I'm still dang impressed with the haircutting! (((HUGS)))!

K.

sewmelody said...

Thanks so much for sharing your journey, Anastasia. It is heartrending but so beautiful at the same time. I feel so blessed to have a window into the love between the two of you.
Praying still.

Uniquely Yours Crafters said...

Your relationship with your mom is a sweet testimony to your faith. I pray that the Lord will continue to give you and your family the peace that passes understanding.

noahslandingart said...

Oh Matts...how precious! This reminds me so much of the last 2 years with my Dad before he passed away. These moments will bring you peace through the sadness in days ahead. May God bless you with His love, strength and peace.

HaloHatz said...

I love that you have such a special relationship with your mom, honey. Thank you for sharing such private, precious moments with us. You will carry these memories with you forever. Love you so much.

Kathleen said...

Each moment is a treasure! What a blessing you are - thanks for inviting others to walk with you. Praying for you all! (((hugs, love and prayers)))

Graceful Moments said...

Heart aching for you. It is difficult to know that your mommy is leaving and you can't stop it. In some ways it is a blessing because you do have the time to spend together being sure that each knows the love in the heart for the other.

new creationz said...

Thank you for sharing this with us, Matts. You are a special person. May God surround you and your family.

Jocelyn

Charsbeads4u said...

Once again I can't contain my tears...it's so hard to see you have to go through this heartbreaking situation. It's like reliving my mom leaving me...
The thing that helped me most Anastasia is remember, number one, your momma belongs to the Lord, so she will never be lost. The second thing that helped me was to imagine my mom still with me, I know when we are absent from the body we are present with the Lord, but somehow I still feel my mom's presence when I'm missing her and that soothes my broken heart, as it will yours, I know! There is nothing stronger than a mother's love...and I know that because you love her so much and you've had the chance to really soak up her affection in these last few weeks, that you will be able to take great comfort in savoring those memories and basking in their sweetness! I think about you and your family every day, you are constantly in my prayers, my dear friend, my *twin*! *hugs*
Thank you for being such an inspiration in my life, Anastasia, I love you so much!
In His Peace
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Char